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apparently im jumping on the bandwagon:

-im sorry i never know what to say

-i think your one of the few people who gets me

-i miss your smile at my house

-you are one of the best people i know

-i'm so proud of you and i wish that i felt close to you still

-sometimes i wish i got you better

-you amaze me completely

-i miss starbucks

-i wish that i still had faith that things would work out well for you

that's all for now... today was boring, but since kels is out of town for four more days... i get to use her car... WooT... i'm excited... hurray. and im bored, so if anyone has anything good for me to do... please let me in on it.

So yesterday, was crap

But, today was better. At school, i had an incredibly bad headache, like all day long, and it sucked and hurt, but i got home( after giving alli a ride home from her mailbox, and an entirely delightful sunch [supper/luch] with one of my favortie kids ever... yza), and i did all my homework (i only have like 8 B sections to go on Stratton's packet wOOt)and then i went to the band concert, again with Yza, and i felt bad at first, cus I got there at 7:30, when David had told me to get there at 7, but it was okay, cus he was wrong about the time. Then, my phone went off in the middle... Stupid resistant to toilet phone, but all together it was good. Then, Yza and I went to grab some food at Wendy's.... seriously yummy. So that's all... it's not to interesting but Hey... what can ya do.

haha ... a migraine joke for you

okay... we're still not gonna talk about spring break cus i don't have enough time before i puke... but ill try to get in some stuff about my day...

First, i'd like to give ya'll some advice... NEVER GO TO THE HALLMARK STORE WHEN YOUR HEART HURTS..... it makes it worse.. trust me.

Second... so today i got dragged to my mom's office so that she could meet some guy she's doing a will for. I got stuck on the couch to wait there... with his wife... who has alzheimer's. It turns out that she was one of the most interesting and nicest people i've ever met in my life. Yes, we did have the same conversation five times, but that just made it more meaningful. Between her telling me that i was pretty, and only unpopular cus the girls were jealous, and that my boyfriend must be strapping (see why I like her??!!) She imbedded in some of her life story. She came here, as in the United States, on vacation from her home in Belgium where she was an incredibly good stage actress (I mean she still remembers her lines, 40 years later, with alzheimer's... of course i couldn't understand them due to the fact that they were in French). She met her, then married, now husband, fell madly in love, and stayed here to wait for him... giving up everything for something that might not even work out. Well... Mrs.Whatever-your-last-name-is you are my hero... seriuosly... i wish i could be so strong... gees....

anyway.... i thought it was neat... then i had dinner with my stepsister.. played a two games of pool with my step brother's friend, david, (losing both)... and then went to pick him up from his fourteenth hour at school due to detention... and now i'm here... only because i led my mom to believe that me being online right now was crucial to talking to... well becca and alli get it.... i now must throw up...

so . ya its been quite some time and im sick right now and I don't feel like talking about my spring break cus its a little to new... so ya....
but it's been fun... other than the fact that my tan is peeling.. and i'm lonely as hell....

here read this it kinda sums it up... change Jane to John and all the she's to he:


I met Jane at the center of the earth
It was dark there was dirt all around
But I gather you can figure that

Jane says I’m your body in the night
And I’ll lead you where you might find yourself
Better if you follow me

So go right you’ll be left at a big hotel
You’ll meet the devil at the bottom of a wishing well
You know you better give him something
Give him something good
Like everybody else he’s misunderstood

Jane says it’s a long way out…
I’m gonna make it out
Cause I’m about her

Jane says, you’re as Holy as a ghost,
But who loves you the most, if you offer
I might let you carry me

Jane there’s nobody here but yourself
In the end it’s the wealth of your spirit
Now hurry up get on with it

I went left I got right at some big hotel
There was a devil at the bottom of the wishing well
He said you better give me something
Give me something good
Like everybody else I’m misunderstood

Jane says it’s a long way out
I’m gonna make it out
Cause I’m about
Jane says it’s a long way out
I’m gonna make it out

I took a guess and cut a portion out of my heart
He said that’s nowhere close enough but it’s a damn good start
I wrote the secret that I buried on the wishing well wall
He said I’ve seen one… it follows that I’ve seen them all
We spoke of human destination in a perfect world
Derived the nature of the universe (found it unfulfilled)
As I took him in my arms he screamed I’m not insane
I’m just looking for someone to understand my pain...

It’s a long way out…
I’m gonna make it out



Don't get scared... it makes more sense when you hear it.. but anyway the mission trip was a freaking blast... kate, david, and mark.... yall are hilarious....... alli i miss you like crazy and thanks for the phone calls. cus they made me feel special.. now, i'm going to go to sleep cus i have a stomach virus and grandpa.... ya it sucks....

have good cold as helll spring breaks guys... love you all